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                           The Beginning

      There comes a time when your mind  becomes  so  loaded  with
 experiences  that  you  must tell someone about them to allow new
 ones to take their places.   They become a part of your  everyday
 life.   They affect you in the form of daydreams,  not allowing a
 moment to concentrate on the job at hand.   At first they are  no
 more  than  just a fast glimpse of a girl in your past.   Quickly
 she passes, but give her a few moments, she'll be back.  When she
 comes back however watch out!   She is going to be more than  you
 can  handle.   She will come to you in a form more beautiful than
 she ever really was.  She becomes exactly what you want.  Exactly
 what you  wished  her  to  be,  whether  it  be  an  actual  past
 experience  or  and experience you wished to have happen that for
 some unknown reason never did.   But you  know  why  they  didn't
 happen don't you?   You were too nervous to make them happen.  To
 ask her to do something special to turn you on even  more  or  to
 spend more time to turn her on even more.
      In  your  dreams  everything seems to work out right doesn't
 it?   She is putty in your hands.   Doing everything your  little
 heart  desires.    If  your  heart wishes to please her more than
 anyone else she will moan and groan and thrash and throw just the
 way you like.   Wouldn't it be wonderful if  all  your  daydreams
 were true?
      If  you spend enough time daydreaming about the way you wish
 your past had been or the way you hope your future will  be,  you
 will  find  yourself  in  a  situation  where nothing seems to go
 right.   You keep wishing for things to happen but they never  do
 because  you  won't  work  hard enough to make them happen.   You
 think because  they  work  so  easily  in  your  dreams  that  it
 shouldn't be too much harder in real life.  But it is.
      Let  me tell you about some of my experiences and you decide
 for yourself if they  are  true  or  not.    Some  will  be  real
 experiences  and  some  will  be  the  things  that  I wished had
 happened.  Most of it will be real but does it really matter?
      As a person is growing up they have, as all people do, their
 first sexual experience.   I am referring to the first time  that
 you  come  in contact with a girl.   Most guys first encounter is
 usually a girl with whom you are actually experimenting.  You may
 not think you are experimenting at the time but if you look  back
 at  it  you  feel  very inadequate and tell yourself how dumb you
 were not to know what you were doing.  That is how I look back at
 my first encounter.   I was young and stupid but boy was  it  was
 fun while it was happening.
      My  girlfriend's  name was Linda.   It's really hard to call
 her a girlfriend because it was really just a puppy love. She was
 very  tall  with long beautiful black hair.  I say she  was  tall
 only because I was the  shortest guy in the school. I guess it is
 all relative but she really did look cute anyway.   She was by no
 means  the  most beautiful  girl in  the school but there sure as
 hell were a lot worse.
       It was toward the end of the school year when  I  first  met
 her.    My teacher had asked me to clean out a book room and sort
 the books by title and place them neatly on their proper shelves.
 Of course I was the kind of person that would do anything to  get
 out  of  class  so I spent all day sorting these books.   After a
 while it got pretty boring so I asked my teacher  if  one  of  my
 friends could help me.   It was not that I couldn't do it myself,
 I just wanted someone to  shoot  the  shit  with.    My  teacher,
 because  that  there  was only a few days of school left,  didn't
 care and said sure.   In addition to getting my friend,  he  also
 brought  along  Linda  whom he introduced as a friend of his.   I
 didn't mind having an extra person to talk to so I didn't put  up
 any  arguments.    We were busy sorting books and talking and the
 day went by real fast.   By the end of the day,  we had  all  the
 books  sorted  and  in  their  place.    I natural didn't tell my
 teacher because I wanted to milk this job for all it  was  worth.
 I  told  her  we  had more work to do and we should be able to be
 done in a day or two.   We always left some books in a messy pile
 so that we could show her we were not yet done.
      The   next  day  we  started  early  in  the  morning  doing
 absolutely nothing.   We just sat  on  our  asses  talking.    My
 friend,  David, lit up a cigarette which at that age was a mortal
 sin to be caught doing,  especially in school but closed  in  the
 book room we really didn't care.   He puffed on the cigarette and
 the room became filled with smoke.  Cigarette smoke always seemed
 to give me headaches so I laid down on the floor to relax.  Linda
 said that she was tired (or so she said) and also  laid  down  on
 the  floor  but  unfortunately not near me.   David said,"why not
 join the crowd," so he got up and turned off the light  and  then
 he  also  laid  down  on the floor.   It was kind of hard to fall
 asleep on a hard floor so I just kind of laid there.   As my eyes
 began to adjust to what little light was coming under the door, I
 noticed that David had laid down next to Linda and they had their
 arms  around  each  other  and were busy kissing away.   This was
 something I had never done with anyone before so I got an instant
 hard-on watching them.   After a few minutes,  I saw David's hand
 slip down inside Linda's shirt.  This was too much.  I was really
 testing  the  stitching  on  my pants zipper.   I really couldn't
 believe they were actually doing this.   I really wanted  to  run
 over there and stick my hand down her shirt too.   But of course,
 I couldn't do that it wouldn't be right to bother them so I  just
 lay there until they were done.  They never went any farther than
 that but boy what a show that was.
      They  finally  got  up  and  turned  on the lights and Linda
 recomposed herself and we talked for a while,  sorted the rest of
 the  books  and  then  left  the  book  room  for  our respective
 classrooms.   The next day was the last day of school and we were
 too  busy  to  work  in  the book room.   At that point we really
 didn't want too.  The job had served its purpose well.
      David and Linda were going out for pizza  after  school  and
 asked  me  to  come along.   I said sure.   I met David and Linda
 outside the school and we started walking to a pizza  parlor  not
 too far away.  As we were walking down the street, David's mother
 drove  by and stopped when she saw him.   She called him over and
 asked to see his report card.   It was nowhere near good and  she
 started  screaming  and  threw  him  into the car and drove away.
 There wasn't too much we could do  about  what  happened  and  we
 decided  that just the two of us would go for pizza.   We sat and
 ate our pizza and talked about anything that came  to  our  minds
 and  over  the  course of the next hour and a half we became very
 friendly.   As a gesture of friendship,  and that's all it was at
 the time,  I invited Linda to my house to go swimming.   I didn't
 expect it but she accepted my invitation right away  without  any
 apprehension.   From that point on, while walking to her house to
 get her bathing suit and then to my house,   I was on cloud nine.
 A girl actually accepted an invitation from ME.
      The  walk to my house took forever.   I couldn't wait to see
 her in her bathing suit.  We talked along the way,  and I started
 to  really like her.   She was very nice to me like no other girl
 had been before.   I actually got up the nerve to hold her  hand.
 Boy  was  that a great accomplishment for me.   I was so proud of
 myself.   She let me hold her hand without  giving  any  sign  of
 discontent.
      We  arrived  at  my house and we went inside so I could show
 her around.   We found my mother working in  the  kitchen  and  I
 introduced Linda to her.   I wasn't too sure what my mother would
 say about me bringing a girl home but my mother was very pleasant
 about it so I wasn't quite as nervous.   I finished showing Linda
 around the house and then I took her downstairs to the pool.  She
 couldn't  wait  to go swimming so I showed her the bathroom where
 she could get changed and I went off into another room to  change
 into my bathing suit.
      After  a few minutes Linda emerged from the bathroom wearing
 a super bright almost hot pink one piece bathing suit.  It really
 made her look beautiful.   It accented her long black hair.   For
 the  first  time I noticed that she actually had a set of tits on
 her that very few girls in the school had.  They were quite large
 by junior high school standards.  In actuality, they weren't that
 big but they sure looked nice.   I think that she noticed that  I
 was staring at her chest by the big smile on her face.   Before I
 could say anything, not that I could,  she ran outside and jumped
 into the pool.
      I  put  my eyes back in my head and jumped in the pool after
 her.  We swam and splashed around for about an hour.  My pool has
 a slide and we had lots of fun going down the slide together with
 Linda sitting between my legs.   I know she had to be feeling  my
 hard-on  because  it  was  sticking her right in the back but she
 gave no indication.   We played around in the pool until we  were
 water-logged.    Linda  said she was getting out so she could dry
 off.  Of course I followed her.
      We wiped ourselves off and then went back into the house  to
 change.    As  we stepped through the door into the house,  Linda
 stopped.   I had no idea what she was doing but it didn't take me
 long to find out.   She held my hand and gave me a big kiss right
 on the lips.   WOW!   I couldn't believe she did that.   She just
 smiled  at  me  and I noticed her looking down at my bathing suit
 and seeing a real big lump.  I had the hard-on of a lifetime. She
 let out a  little  giggle  and  said,  "would  you  like  to  see
 something real interesting?"
      Before  I could clear my throat to say anything,  she slowly
 began pulling her shoulder strap down her arm  and  then  pulling
 her  arm  through  it.   Then she reached for her other strap and
 pulled her arm through it too.    She  was  just  standing  there
 showing me lots of cleavage.   I think I was drooling on my chest
 but I didn't notice.   My eyes were glued  to  her  chest.    She
 slowly  and teasingly began pulling down her bathing suit showing
 more and more of her tits as she went.   She was  going  so  slow
 that  it  seemed  forever  for one of her nipples to pop out from
 underneath her suit.   I thought I was going to cream in my pants
 right there.   Then her other nipple popped out.  They were small
 and pointy.   As the bathing suit came down a little  farther,  I
 could see the whole form of her tits.
      I was having trouble breathing.  I couldn't believe all this
 was  happening.    She just stood there with an ear to ear smile,
 blinding me with her pearly white teeth.
      "Don't you have anything to say?" she said.
      "You leave me speechless, what would you like me to say?"
      "How about asking to touch them."
      "Can I?"
      "Go for it."
      I tried to raise my hands but I was still  so  stunned  that
 they wouldn't budge.  They felt so numb.
      Linda,  then  realizing  my problem,  took my hand up to her
 mouth and kissed it and then placed it right on her chest.    For
 the  first  time in my life,  I knew what it was to feel a girl's
 softer spot.   It was an outstanding feeling.   I felt her nipple
 sticking into the palm of my hand and it seemed to get larger.  I
 was  still  a  little  spastic  with my actions.   I wasn't doing
 anything with my hand but letting it sit there.
      She said, "here, let me show you what to do."
      She pushed my hand away and grabbed her tits  with  her  own
 hands and started squeezing and massaging them.   She looked like
 she was really enjoying it.   Then she started playing  with  her
 nipples,  rolling them between her thumb and index finger.   They
 just seemed to get even bigger.   Then she said,  "now why  don't
 you try."
      I  placed  both  my hands on her chest and started squeezing
 her tits.   It was fabulous.   They were so  firm.    I  couldn't
 believe it.   I stood there playing with her tits, doing what she
 did, rolling her nipples between my fingers.  She loved it.   She
 actually  let  out  what  sounded  like a little moan.   I was in
 heaven.
      After a few minutes of playing with her tits,  she  appeared
 to be really getting turned on.   But then what do I know at that
 age.
      She said, "let's try something different."
      She put her hand behind my neck and  pulled  my  head  right
 down  into  her  chest  putting  one of her nipples right into my
 mouth.
      "Suck on them" she said,  "suck on them like you would  want
 me to suck on your cock."
      I  sure  as  hell  didn't give her any argument.   I started
 sucking on her tits as if my life depended on it.   I  went  from
 one  to the other.   Back and forth.   I even got real daring and
 started squeezing her tits while  I  sucked  on  them.    I  kept
 concentrating  real hard on what I was doing so I wouldn't appear
 like I didn't know anything.   I kind of figured  she  knew  that
 anyway.    I kept sucking and squeezing.   I couldn't get enough.
 They tasted so good.   She shocked me when she lifted my head up.
 She  made me feel like I was doing something wrong.   I asked her
 if I could help her get changed.  I meant it to be sarcastic.   I
 didn't expect anything to come of it.
      "No thank you,  I think I can do that by myself.   But there
 is one thing you can do for me.  Here, hold this."
      Like a flash she dropped her bathing suit to her ankles  and
 stepped  out of it.   There was this beautiful bush staring me in
 the face.  She picked up the bathing suit and handed it to me and
 said, "how do you like it?"
      "The bathing suit?"
      "No silly, that's not what I'm talking about."
      "It's real nice."
      "Would you like to see it a little bit better?"
      "Sure."
      She took me by the hand and led me over to a chair.
      "Promise me you will stand right here until I  say  you  can
 move."
      "Sure, anything you say."
 She sat down on the chair and gave me a real big smile.
      "Promise me you won't tell anyone I did this."
      "Of course not" I replied.
      She  leaned  back  and spread her legs putting them over the
 armrests.   What a pussy!   It was pink and real wet.   Just like
 the  ones in those magazines my father has.   I was just standing
 there in complete shock.   She put her hands between her legs and
 started rubbing.
      She said, "have you ever seen a girl's pussy before?  Do you
 like it?"
      "No, yes"
      "Make up your mind."
      "It looks wonderful."
      I just stood there staring between her legs.   Her breathing
 began to get heavy.   I began rubbing my dick through  my  pants.
 Linda  noticed  and said,  "why don't you pull it out where I can
 see it."
      I pulled  my  hard-on  out  without  any  hesitation.    She
 continued rubbing her pussy without missing a stroke.
      She said, "step a little closer so I can get a better look.
      I  did as she asked.   To my surprise,  she grabbed on to my
 cock with her right hand keeping her left at a steady pace.   She
 started  stroking  me.    What  a  feeling.   I could feel myself
 coming.   I knew it wouldn't take long  because  she  had  me  so
 worked up.
      "I want you to come on my chest."
      "No problem, here it comes."
      I shot my load all over her chest.  I felt my knees begin to
 give way.   I could barely hold myself up.   She began rubbing it
 into her chest but never stopped massaging her pussy.    By  this
 time.  her pussy was soaked.  She put both hands back to work and
 said that now it was her turn and she wanted me to just sit  back
 and  watch.    I sat down on the floor right in front of her just
 watching her go at it.   She began huffing and puffing  all  over
 again.    She  started  rubbing faster and faster.   After only a
 minute or two she let out a moan or a groan or what ever the hell
 it was and she started to jerk and shake wildly.   Her legs  went
 up into the air.  After a few seconds she finally calmed down and
 put her legs back together and her feet on the floor.   She threw
 her head back and just seemed to want to relax.
      "Boy did that feel good.   It has been a long time  since  I
 came like that.  I love playing with myself in front of guys.  It
 really turns me on."
      "You can do it in front of me anytime."
      "I think it is time to get changed now."
      I  was  disappointed  because  I was almost hard again but I
 knew she was right; it was getting late.
      "I am going to get changed.  I'll be right back."
      With that she turned and stepped into the bathroom.  What an
 ass she had too.
      A minute or two later she  came  out  of  the  bathroom  all
 dressed.    I  was  kind of disappointed but I didn't really know
 what to expect.   Linda said that she had to go home for  dinner,
 so I,  being the gentleman that I was, walked her home.  I was in
 a daze the whole time we were walking.   I was holding  her  hand
 and thinking about all the things that had happened.
      We  arrived  at  the  front  of her house and stopped at the
 door.   She said she had a wonderful time and hoped that we could
 do it again in the near future.   I again became speechless.  She
 gave me a really big kiss,  said good-bye and  stepped  into  her
 house.    I  ran home as fast as I could just thinking about what
 she had said.   I ran into my house and headed straight  for  the
 bathroom to jerk off.  What a day it had been.
      To  this  day  that  event has haunted me.   Every time I am
 sitting in class,  Linda pops into my mind and I go through  that
 afternoon  over  and over again.   Each time is almost as good as
 the first.
      I didn't see Linda for several years.  Her father was in the
 Army and was transferred a short time later.   That  sounds  like
 bullshit  but  that's what really happened.   My first experience
 came to an end rather abruptly.


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